Depressed!

Yesterday was not a good day for me. well it was started good, i woke up and went to the kitchen to find out that my husband was making breakfast for me. Indeed a thing to start my day but later on i got a call from my doctor telling me that i have to come back to the lab to do my 3 hour glucose test. I failed the 1 hour one with the sugar level of 165. I really devastated. I was crying all day yesterday but eventually felt better after. I am just scared of the needles and also the fact that I might have a GD. Anyway, i calm down myself and just do my part and take the 3 hour test. i have a diabetis at least i know that i have it and will change my diet. I start changing my diet already. Totally get rid of my white rice and replace it with brown. It actually not that bad. I am eating more this time but i ate healthy food which i need to do even if i dont have a diabetis. I think it is just blessing in disguise to make me aware. Well I am still praying that i will pass the three hour test but even if I pass it, i will still keep my diabetic diet. No more white rice for me until the baby come out!